Unfading memories

A poetic piece depicting fear in depression

I have been out here since I was nine,
left all I knew that was mine;
With tears, I walked by the hood,
homies telling me I gotta be good.

Went invincible with just a goodbye kiss,
staring at the ones I hoped that I would miss.
Papa told me. I would be fine,
that this time was divine.

I wasn’t certain but I sought to believe,
thinking of that moment I would be relieved
Each moment I seek to flee from these memories
stored up in my heart like soured groceries

Yet this stream of tears in my eyes,
as I remember all the little lies
Can’t just seem to stop tonight,
am I just being too uptight?

I hear voices like he were with me,
my memories of him can’t go free
I wished we’d always be together
but now I guess all of this is over.

It’s over! says my heart in despair,
I can never live freely like my peers.
caged in the atmosphere of my mind, dark;
still hoping to be visited by the light I lack.

Words of hope have become scarce to my ears
and lost their way with all these voices. I hear.
Still, I believe help is on its way,
Yes, I will find rest one day.