time to learn from myself

I’ve spent the whole of this morning reading article after article on this website. Relatively new to Medium, I’m now currently soaking it all in, mainly reading pieces on how other people have done it and how they think you should do it.

I have always read, watched and talked to people who have ‘made’ it or are ‘successful’ in hopes that I may be able to learn from and emulate said success. Every day I tune in to watch Casey Neistat’s movies. A man who defines the word ‘do’ and lives a life that many aspire to, including myself. When I was younger I would also watch interviews of my favourite musicians and bands, listening to their back stories of how they got to where they are, hoping I could follow a similar game plan. Over the past week similar has applied for me reading articles across Medium. I take inspiration from those writers who have lived their lives and then found a means to share that and pass it on, it’s the only reason I’m writing this now.

But maybe that’s my problem. Maybe I fill too much of my time ‘learning’ how to live from other people instead of getting out and experiencing life for myself. I need to gain more knowledge from my own successes and failures. Trial and error is usually my go to technique when trying to solve a problem so why not apply it to life itself.

I don’t mean to say I need to stop seeking advice from those who are successful or living the life they want to lead as essentially I aim to be in their situation to one degree or another. However, I need to start forging their advice and ideas around my own experiences and find my own route to success.

Most importantly I need to live for the now. I understand it’s a cliche but I’m someone who walks through life worrying about the past or planning for the future. For now I need to take in the scenery around me. And why wait to do the things I aim to do. I should book that city break to Paris that I’ve been meaning to go on. I should apply for the pub gigs that I claimed I would do three years ago. I should begin sharing on Medium.

No more excuses, it is time for me to create my own story. Hopefully I’ll share some small successes but as a human I’m bound to make mistakes. At least I’ll be learning for myself.