Short Journal #01 — ‘✓ Seen 12.47 AM’

It’s 00.38 AM. My sleeping pattern had already shifted for years, and I didn’t really have any reason to change, not yet. I didn’t really want it enough, I think.

Out of boredom, I turned my facebook chat to online after years disabling it. Huh, not much people on the list. Probably because it’s way after midnight. Also I didn’t have many facebook friends. If ever, I unfriended 300 people already, just for the sake ‘not knowing them personally/ irl enough’.

While looking at the list, there’s a little green dot next to your name.

You’re online. For minutes, and you went offline.

Then I decided to said hey.

12.43 AM — Hey.

I spend solid 3 minutes overthinking and hyperventilating.

Why would I say Hey at the first place? It’s look like I’m too rude. Hey. Why didn’t I say Hi instead? No, no, no. ‘Hi’ might sounds a bit too personal.

All sort of that stupid thoughts swimming in my head. The longest 3 minutes full of regrets.

I look at the chat bar, and you’re still offline.

Ah come on, I told myself, What’s the worst that can happen?

What’s the worst that can happen is, ✓ Seen 12.47 AM — and never heard anything from you ever again.