A gift from my mother, 20 years after she died
I still remember that day watching mom smiling and talking into the mirror as she prepared for a client meeting as if it was just yesterday. She wore a soft white blouse and a black suit, paired with gold earrings. She recited her words firmly under her breath as she fixed her hair. There was this special kind of spirit and fire in her eyes that captivated me. She was radiant, and carried herself like a million dollars. I was mesmerised by her energy.
“Eunice, you can do everything you put your mind to. You are limitless.” Her eyes smiled with love as she caught my 4 year old self watching her in the reflection.
She was the person I admire the most — she had always told me to be the master of my own fate, and to believe in myself.
Cancer killed mother when I was 8
I was told not to talk about my mom’s death to others, as it was not the ideal image the family wanted to portray. And so I buried the event along with my voice. I acted as though nothing was wrong and tried to appear unaffected by the big, dark, bottomless gaping void in my heart.
This meant to deny my “self”, and to fill it with the need for someone else’s love and approval because I needed the world’s acceptance. Being a motherless child, I felt unworthy of love, as if I did not qualify to receive affection. I felt small, uncertain of myself, and rejected my own identity so that I could blend in and feel normal.
After I graduated university with a Graphic Design degree, I took a job in advertising. The pay was little and it became apparent that the only way to increase my salary quickly was to keep switching jobs and negotiate my way up.
Every time I switched jobs, I would receive snarky comments, saying I’m being greedy, and that I’m asking for more than I deserve.
I am unworthy
Everyday I was being fed with negativity, and fear eroded my money mindset after all these years. I started playing safe, doubting my abilities… and wondering if I actually deserved more wealth, happiness and abundance in my life.
I thought, “No one believed in me, so who am I to believe in myself?”
“You clearly don’t even have any experience for the job, what makes you think you deserve that pay?”
“Only greedy people ask for a raise, why can’t you be satisfied with what you’re paid?”
“You don’t deserve to be paid more if you’re not out there saving the world.”
“I’m lucky I don’t have you as my employee, you’re so ungrounded, all you think about is money.”
“Who would buy your product? Nobody would listen to you.”
“Don’t come asking me for my money, I wouldn’t trust you as a customer”
A fearful, scarcity mindset eroded my mind all these years. Whatever was left of my self confidence faded, along with my mother’s teachings.
My mother refused to give up on me
Then one day, my aunt gave me a diamond pendant. She had kept it stored away in a safe box all these years, until I was old enough to keep it safe.
I felt a rush of love come back to me as I looked at myself in the mirror with the pendant on my neck. A wave of emotions hit me so strong that I sensed my blood rush back to my fingertips, my lips, my limbs, my face… It was like I’ve been brought back to life.
As I touched the pendant looking into my own grown up reflection, my mother’s tender voice echoed:
“Eunice, you can do everything you put your mind to. You are limitless.”
A thick fog in front of my eyes suddenly disappeared. I could see clearly again.
That was when I realised, I do have plenty to create the kind of life I want for myself. At that moment, I released myself from all the false beliefs that held me back from reaching my potential. And of course, my mom would’ve wanted to see me shine!
I no longer fear not having enough resources, time, connections, money, because I have access to my own limitless mind.
Ever since then, I’ve removed all the self doubts and fears, those feelings which no longer serve me and kept me playing small. The discovery of my truth gave me back my voice and ignited my desire to live a happy life.
I’ve been able to invest myself in every possible way to trade my expertise for more money.
I became the most junior and the highest paid sales person in my team. Raises, bonuses, commissions, leadership opportunities, everything kept flying in within one year.
Within that same year I managed to save enough to buy myself a home in the most expensive city of the world, something my friends could only dream of.
She’s with me more than ever before
I attribute all of my success to a powerful gift that my mother gave me — The idea that you must tap into your infinite resources to create wealth and happiness, so that you can experience freedom, fulfilment and abundance in your life.
I wear this precious diamond pendant everywhere I go. Not only is it beautiful and classy, just like my mother. It is a gift of my new voice, identity and strength — 20 years after her death, she still helped me become stronger, louder and more powerful than I could’ve ever imagined. And now, it is my mission to radiate and shine my light in the world with this special gift.