I’ve been pressing very intentionally towards the heart of God in preparation for this. I was so worried that the time would come for me to leave and I would be in a place where I was either unwilling or not in a proper mindset to receive much from Daddy. It’s an easy place for me to get to, sadly. They have a 30-day prep that all attendees are asked to go through and part of that is reading “Wild at Heart” but John Eldridge. It was a life changing book for me. It put words to abstract ideas that had been floating around in my soul for the last year or more. So much life and truth came out of that book and I couldn’t recommend it highly enough for men of all ages.

I’ve also been committing myself more to the reading of my Bible. It’s a weird thing to say but ever since I was filled with the Spirit I’ve spent less time reading the Bible, weird… I justify it by saying it’s because of how legalistic I used to be, but the truth is that I just got lazy when I encountered freedom. ☺

It’s easy to overthink this whole child-of-God thing… I know I’ve done a TON of overthinking in the last couple of years. What I’m slowly learning is that it’s just like any other relationship, you show him what he means to you by spending time with Him. It can’t be motivated by selfishness or trying to climb to a new level of holiness. I’m not sure that works at all, really. If you love someone you spend time with them and if you spend enough time with them they’ll start rubbing off on you. God, how much I want that…

So if you’re the kind who’s inclined to pray I’d really appreciate your prayers over this next week as I embark on my Quest. I want great time with Him. I want an experience that changes my life. I want to know what it is that really sets my heart on fire. I want to know what I was born to do.

That’s all. Not too much to ask for, right? ;)