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I decided to write on my blog again.

I stopped writing on it a while ago. Part of it was that I did not want to share the many private things I wrote about. But more importantly, I was embarrassed with my writing. May be it’s my Asian upbringing, but I tend to feel embarrassed by anything I do unless I’m convinced I’m really good at it. Especially so if it’s something I want to be good at. I want to be a good writer, but I’m only a mediocre one, and confronting mediocrity is never easy. Being silent is, though, even in a blog that nobody reads anyways.

I know this is all stupid. It’s understandable, I think, but stupid all the same. I seem to think that some unknown person is lurking in the dark, ready to judge me at the slightest imperfection. It’s stupid trying to prove yourself to someone you can’t even identify. It’s a waste of precious energy.

So I decided to just write on my blog. It’s going to be good practice, confronting who I really am without worrying about being judged. After all, you get used to this only if you try repeatedly.