like always i dont know where to start so im just going to start right here and then see where this goes. my mind is a mess. do we grow out of it? this losing of mind thing. do we find it back? by we i mean other mothers. all…

i wanted to be this particular person and now im 34 and ive been wanting to become this person since maybe my teens. in all these years the idea of this person hasnt changed in any significant way. and still after all these years im so far away and i…

I won’t lie. I worked really hard. I looked strategically at every step I was taking. I always chose the noble way, discrediting the shady albeit easier paths. I am not a great man. I am just like everyone else. But my diligence was unshakable, ruthless was my attitude towards…

To be yourself is really just an oxymoron. Because so long as you are trying to be something, you are not yourself. Does this bring to mind an image of a bunch of hippies lazying around, doing nothing? But werent they also just projecting an identity they had conceived in…

i feel bad though the prospect of new ventures have just opened up to me with their unlimited possibilities -- who knows what future may bring. future is the creepiest thing on my mind right now. i have never been too big on future planning in concrete steps, i was…

Is life a 1225 page manual on the art_of_war with 8 point text size that you have to keep leafing through endlessly? Because I’m beginning to see no point to it. Most people have good values, but they don’t get translated to waiting on signals and letting the pedestrians pass…

آج کل میں نے شیطان کے بارے میں بہت سوچا ہے۔ کیوں سوچا ہے یہ نہیں معلوم بس یہ باتیں مسلسل میرے زہن میں آرہی ہیں۔ جیسے کہ ہمارے خیالات کس حد تک ہمارے ہیں اور ہمیں کیسے معلوم کہ کوئی خیال ہمارا ذاتی ہے یا پھر وسوسہ؟ ویسے ہم…

میں یہ جاری رکھنا چاہتی ہوں مگر افسوس کہ اور کام آن پڑا ہے :( اور اس کے ساتھ ساتھ میں بہت اداس محسوس کررہی ہوں۔ اچانک مجھے جوس چاہیے، بہت ہی میٹھا جوس۔ مجھے ایک ” کامل” نوٹ بک اور قلم بھی چاہیے۔ اس وقت شاید ہمارے دماغ کام…

Something shady & sketchy — A smooth ball. round, but with pointy edges in unexpected places that can cut like a knife when you least expect it. Like alum. Maybe brighter. Or darker. A black alum ball. With a wound it holds the cure. Can cut and can cure. Can do both. Or none. Or…