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I fell in love with him ,with the wrong person , I can hardly admit it ; my heart is so full of him , I’m in love with his beautiful smile that fascinated me ; I’m in love with his laugh that sets my heart on fire .I’m in love with his voice that does not leave me , I’m in love with his brown eyes that makes my heart beats hard , I’m in love with his heavy thrilling beard , I’m in love with his perfect body , I’m in love with his black hair , I’m in love with every piece of him , I can’t control my feelings , I know that I’m on the wrong way , might be I should stop , I’m in a maze , all I’ve to do is to try all the ways around me to get out , it’s really a deadly maze , I’m confused , weak , afraid and unfortunate , I can’t find the oppropriate words to describe my misery , I just want to see him , hold him , touch him and embrace him ; Idon’t know what’s happening with me , I feel so freaking sad , tired and hopeless ; he made me suffer too much ; what does he think he is ? he has no right to grieve me , whenever I see him I feel something inside of me , he makes me burn everyday ; why does love hurts us ? Everyone keeps telling me love is the most beautiful thing on earth , so tell me why my love is killing me ? I used to share my sadness with birds , hoping that they will go to tell him everything . “ she loves you idiot , she suffers everyday and everytime ,in every moment ;you used to see her , it’s not just a concidence idiot , can’t you see it ? , the way she looks at you is not the same she looks at others ; you really tortured her soul “.

I know he does not love me but I adore him , he’s my Romeo but I’m not his Juliet . I see him every night in my dreams , and as always he looks so real ; I go crazy because this is not my place , here is not where I’ve to be ; every thing he does mekes me love him even more , loving him is the most powerful form of destruction , I just feel like if I’m waiting for something that won’t happen , but I feel satisfied when I remember that he deserves all of this , the best , the most honest and the purest love in the world , I still have hope , maybe he loves me too , but he hides his love like I do , maybe he feels exactly like I feel , maybe he will admit someday , I saw some thing different in his eyes , something made me happy for a while at least , something that reveals everything , I trust in my feelings as much as I trust in his eyes .

Please hug me really tight and tell me that you love me , tell me you’re glad to be here with me , tell me that everything will be alright . If you can’t , it’s okay , just lie to me , I only need some love , even if it’s fake ; you know too much that you’re the desease and the cure , you can save me and you can kill me ; I cried , laughed and believed because of you , how can I explain this feeling ? If I treated you the way you treated me , I’m sure you’ll hate me .

I’m trying to forget you but I’m also waiting for you to come back , I’m sure if I meet you this time , I’ll do anything , I won’t keep anything inside of me , I’ll tell you my sad story watching your charming eyes , I’ll show you how much you mean to me and I’ll recommend you something very important :keep your beard dense ; it seems so damn rousing with the freckles on your cheeks…

Fatima Ezzahrae Oubtar

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