“Uh depression is no big deal……
its all in your head.” Those lines were told to me by my uncle.When you are living in a society where depression is not taken seriously as an issue people tell you that, “you just have to let it go.” You just feel idiot and you tell yourself that how dumb you are crying in a toilet. You have to struggle to make people understand that telling someone to just let go and depression is not a huge deal is like telling cancer patient to stop dying.

When I started to suffer from depression I wasn’t sure what it was. I just remember myself crying all the time and stopped talking. And most of the people around me thought that I found an excuse to abandon my studies. Stress in ninth standard soon turned into a huge monster when staright A student failed in physics and math.
Teachers words were not friendly at all. Teachers can play an important role in a society to cure depression in teenagers but my teachers were too busy in polishing the best students in their class. I mean teahers should understand what they can do and what they are capable of. I bet that I got best teachers around me but they had no idea how to deal with depressed student and they said so many harsh things that I can’t forget them no matter how hard I try.
I started to have panic attacks and started forgetting the lessons I learned for test. I use to get scared and my mind was never ever quite. My head was always cloudy and I suffered from abdominal pain for six months. My family is educated but I wasn’t feeling right to tell my mother but finally my mother realized that I am not crying because of studies she took depression as an issue because she went from these cycles too. Doctor told my mother that I am suffering from depression and IBS which is a bowl syndrome and that is why I was having abdominal pains.
My mother disscussed all this with my chemistry teacher and he tried to help me. It helped me a bit. I was relaxed but things were not getting normal and still things aren’t normal.
I never understood that I was close to my family but maybe I wasn’t close enough to share my emotions. Maybe some emotions can’t be explained with words only tears can explain them.
I just want people to understand that depression, anxiety, panic attacks etc are problems. If it doesn’t ruin you physically than mentally it crushes you. In my society I never seen parents talking to their children about this issue because this was never issue to them. Take this as issue and educate people around you and help your friends if they are going through same and sometimes you just need a hug.
