4th

It has been 4 weeks since I’ve started to return to school. Everything is still the same in my daily routines, waking up at 5:00 AM then going to school by 6:30 AM to start another day full of stressful things to come. To end my day at school, I either exit the campus at either 3:00 or 4:00 PM depending on my schedule.

This school year I am aiming to be my level’s 1st Honors but everyday at school my self-esteem would just go down maybe because : I’m criticizing myself, I’m afraid of making mistakes because of my Perfectionism, I envy others because they’re better than me. I somehow experience mood swings maybe because of my sudden drop of self-esteem and anxiety.

It’s really hard but I am thankful that there are people especially my friends help me. I am also thankful that there is music to vent on. If i’m feeling down I always sit, plug in my earphones and then I listen to music. I am also really really thankful to God for always being there for me.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. —Isaiah 41:10

Having these experiences challenges me and inspires me to keep moving forward no matter what. I may fail, make mistakes, and stumble upon reaching my goal but I always tell myself to just keep moving forward.

Around here we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we’re curious…and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths. — Walt Disney