I once fell in love
The kind of love that gave me plenty of premature ventricular contractions
It was killing me;

At every beat my heart skipped
I gasped heavily for air
As my chest caved in
Blood rushing through my veins — out from my arteries

I’ve been feeling the same lately
But I am not in love
I am just lost, exhausted
The kind of tired sleep can’t fix

I feel empty
It’s so empty, it’s full
I opened my mouth to speak
but I was shut before I could

This is the society we live in
Sadness is nothing but ugly
Happiness is everything and beautiful
You can’t suffer; you can’t feel
You can‘t be human, it’s not beautiful
Don’t cry; don’t weep
Speak not of depression
Speak not of dark thoughts
See light, see beauty
The sky is blue, pink, red, white
Speak of joy; speak of love
But don’t speak of unrequited love; lost love; forbidden love
Speak of only good; see only good; give only good

But when you lie down in your bed at night
With nothing but four walls
Feel, feel everything
Think, think everything
Know that it’s okay — it’s okay to cry and feel sad
Tomorrow may come, or it may not
But you made it, Gosh, you made it through
You survived through the suffering of lying to yourself
But it’s okay, you made it
And that’s enough