Misplaced Affection

Preface:

I thought i could be vulnerable again. Something about the way you laughed, the way you looked at me and the fun we had that made me think I might just forget how jaded I have become. No one wants to repeatedly open themselves up to disaster. The worst part of learning to love again is the constant reminder that people will inherently disappoint you along the way.

Its been months and I thought you would call
A simple hello and I would forget it all

The damage you’ve done, the heartache you’ve caused
But we are all so abundantly flawed

To embrace you again shouldn’t be hard
Instead my heart is battered and scarred

My doubts preceded emotions we started
Surprise was in the manor you departed

Maybe you’ll see this, and be happy to hear
The damage you’ve caused will not disappear

Your lack of kindness was revealed.
So carefully it was concealed.

In the end I must applaud
Such a disingenuous facade

You had me fooled without question
But I still want you, is my guilty confession