Mm. This is the first thing you’ve written that I’ve bothered to read, even though I’ve been aware of you for a while now. It’s good that you’re able to write about this stuff. I’ll be sure to read the previous entries in this series.
I’m surprised how similar the symptom you describe in this entry is to some people’s depression. Specifically, to my own experience. This paranoia can be one of the most twisting, awful things, and it likes to go unnoticed by it’s host. Realising the effect these things have had and are having on your life is to essentially defeat it.