ANNOYED

Fern Urquhart
Oct 19, 2015 · 1 min read

that my symptoms are getting worse again

BORED

of being ill, taking tablets and feeling weak

CONSUMED

by the thought of myasthenia, cures and panic

DRAINED

by thinking and dealing with this day in day out

EXHAUSTED

by the little things that should be a breeze

FRUSTRATED

that I can’t do all I want to do and be all I want to be

GREEDY

because I just want to be well but compared to some people I am so lucky, am I asking too much

HOPEFUL

something will change soon

INTIMIDATED

by the unknown of the future

JEALOUS

of others,their health, their smiles and their strong voices

KNOCKED-DOWN

again and again

LET-DOWN

by my own body, time after time

MYASTHENIA

enough said

NERVOUS

of presentations, heels, photos, new jobs…

OBSESSED

with wanting to be better

PROUD

of how far I’ve come, but knowing there is further to go

QUESTIONING

a cure, the future, my health

RESENTFUL

towards my own body, my immune system, my muscles

SCARED

that I won’t get better

TEARY

most days

UPSET

right now

VULNERABLE

a lot

WEAK

arms, eyes, mouth, legs…

X

at the end of every supportive text from my mum

YEARNING

to be better

Zzz...

I need to sleep

Fern Urquhart

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a journey through the unknown