Fern Urquhart
Sep 26, 2016 · 3 min read

Back we’ll get back to that later…

Oh sweet sweet myasthenia gravis, if you were a human and not a disease I’d hug and kiss you, I’d thank you for all the shit things you did to me, I’d tell you I loved you, I’d say thank you for putting me through what you did, I’d praise you for all the times you put me in hospital, I’d kiss you again and tell you I’m so grateful you made me weak, made me ill, I’d tell you you’ve been the best thing that has happened to me, I’d applaud your efforts at really, really, really testing me, I’d compliment your dedication to getting needles stuck in my arm, I’d be totally indebted to you for all you’ve done for me because without you I wouldn’t have just been…


OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG! I put up a video the other day with the caption that said ‘the happiest I’ve ever been’, UPDATE !!! This is the happiest I’ve ever been, like ever. DREAM COME TRUE HAPPY. (yes, you guessed it, I cried when I found out).

The Golden Door — a beautiful resort tucked away in the Hunter Valley 0f NSW, a region famous for its vineyards and wineries, ironically, as alcohol is totally, completely, off the menu at The Golden Door. I think I’ll manage that when my new normal will be days of early morning walks, raw food, green juices, fitness classes, yoga classes, two days off a week with some ‘work’ sprinkled in between in the most beautiful surroundings. A 6 week program, 5 weeks of interning and then a 6th week of BEING THE GUEST and indulging in all things health and wellness!

I really can’t express how happy I am — overjoyed, ecstatic, elated, thrilled, delighted — yeah none of that really covers it.

If it wasn’t for myasthenia, I wouldn’t have taken such an interest in health and wellness, in curing myself, in foods that help me and foods that don’t, in mindfulness, in juicing, in alternative therapies and everything in between. I wouldn’t have been so passionate about working in the Health and Wellness industry, passionate about helping others, passionate about caring for people, passionate about helping other people get better. So, I probably wouldn’t have applied for this internship…

But 6 years ago if someone told me that something good, something positive, something amazing was going to come out of me getting ill I don’t think I would have believed them.

It is easy for me to say, just hold on in there, something good will come of whatever you’re going through just now because I’m on the other side of it and if someone had said that to me when I was lying in a hospital bed I would have promptly told them where to go, because it doesn’t seem realistic or believable, but it is. It may take days, months, years (six!!) to show up and make an appearance.

But some day the good will show up and you’ll thank the bad.

So a huge shout out to myasthenia for helping me get to here and now and to leading me to the most dreamy, divine internship!!!

Fern Urquhart

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