As I Write my Story Here Comes the Sun
Day 5 of Rehab
Sun’s out
Sun on my face
Appealing to grace
Early morning walk
Meditative awareness
Smile and presence
Enjoyment in the moment in the steps
Peace is every step
— -Thich Nhat Hanh
Walking
Nature
Getting my fitbit steps in
Determined with my goals
I CAN do this alone!
And by alone I mean…without a pill.
I can actually wake up, get dressed, lace up my shoes, walk in nature, feel the sun on my face…
Feel ALL of it
I was scared. Scared AF! So much fear in my head that I wouldn’t be able to get out of bed and make my way to a coffee pot anymore. But here I am… doing it alone.
Relief!
I don’t mean, I can do this alone — this new way of life
A sober way, free from pills, free from strife
For this I walk hand in hand with a tribe of support
I can do this
Everyday
This I know
.….. I think
……….I hope?
…………..I WANT so badly to agree with myself.
Written 1/28/18 Day 5 of 7 of Rehabilitation coming off painkillers
NOTE: on 1/29/18 I wrote these words below the above poem…
Yes! This I know.
And this, I AM
Recovery