Josh — Thank for writing this my heart is so heavy. Powerful words in what I wish was a short fiction story.
10 stages of grief to go through and you are probably in stage one. Breathing for you. Keep writing your words will Resonate.
No one wants to grow up an addict. That is truth. My goodness if you told me I would write about addiction at age 46 with zero addictive personality I’d be like what the F are you talking about?
Be strong today at the service.
PS- showing vulnerability is the deepest way to show strength.