REAL LIVE TRUTH

right here Joel Leon. ❤️

Like, on point!


I’ve been somewhat floating lately

Through this world

Grateful and Content

Actually….

Floating,

And Floaty

Ahhh I worked so hard to get here!

10 months of work, more to do — -always

But the saying? Less is more? Yes yes yes.

I’ve worked hard to make my world less.

Less crazy

Less partying

Less worrying

Less RX

Less shopping

Less Alcohol

Less stress

Less bull-shit

Less saying yes

Less complication

Less busy 🙄

— — divorced mother of two children, one teen, with a 25 year career at the same company this entire time, managing a billion dollar territory that requires travel weekly, who occasionally has the pleasure of seeing her bff latino lover from Queens *yes Joel Leon.* (you know the one 😂👍🏻) for deep mental and physical connection, and a recent found new love!

Writing!

Medium consuming of such fulfilling hours

(But, I like to tell myself that I’m LESS busy)

This “lessness” has helped me get to a zenned out space.


Joel Leon. This space, the “very beautiful and grand” space you refer to in this quote I am responding to above, it tastes delicious. In this space I was able to write my heart out the other day.

So much of my writing time is really intense, in a focused present space, where my words fall on the page.

Ideas come — powerful enough to bring me into a zen trance — fulfilling my body with joy taking over space of stress and burden.

When I add rhyming, for me it’s next level enjoyment, and work. I adore googling words that I need to find rhymes with whatever word I am using to get my message across. Then I get to see all the words that rhyme, look up the dictionary meaning of what some of these words are if I am not familiar with them, and chose the one that leaps across the page to me. I can how I can fit it in to my story and ensure it helps tell my message.

With this piece, I left it all on the page. Like a hot sex session where one is completely spent after. Like a intense cycle spin class where you leave it all on the bike. Nothing left to give. Empty. In the most glorious of ways. Possibly like no other experience I have had so far writing.

For those readers who chose to click and read this piece, thank you with all of my heart. For it is my heart that is on the page. My heart is full here as things in my world align.

And oh I am strong right now and trusting. I need to be, because although I’ve been floaty and floating along — as Joel says above…

Life is hard.

Truth.

For even in this perfect blend of bliss I describe in “The Art Of Alignment”, I received contrast. It’s like come on now! Seriously? And oh is that contrast hard and welcome. Really? Can’s a girl catch a break? I want to say “get out!” to the wrench twisting and piching my calm bliss.

I have demonstrated contrast many times during my 10 months of writing here. And my readers have seen me always try to leave with some hope, freedom, a lesson, a will, a faith. Therefore I will not expand on my hard curve ball that came this week.

But through the tears and fear and overwhelmed suffocating feelings, I found that because I am trusting this path so much and feeling so damn grounded, that I am getting through it without getting totally unhinged. Without drinking (day 25 today people!), Without hopelessness.

And Joel Leon. I thank you for your words. For this line wrapped itself around me and me it. I couldn’t leave it until these words came out.

Life is hard, very beautiful and grand, but hard.


Stay Fierce💃

float +‎ -y/ Adjective: floaty (comparative floatier, superlative floatiest)

(of a dress) lightweight, so as to rise when the wearer is walking.

(music) light, hypnotic and relaxing.

All the floaty music in the world could not disguise my grunts as I clenched my teeth and curled my toes to fight the pain.

Having a feeling of extreme calm, as if floating through the air.

Synonyms Edit (lightweight, rising): billowy

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Fierce Force 💃🏼

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