Start with Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth.
Or you tube videos.
People in prison say he has changed their lives. Prison can take their body, not their mind.
Use your mind don’t let it use you. Stay in awareness. Sit in whatever emotion you are in negative or positive. Some emotions don’t like the attention, the spot light on them. Be in it. Acknowledge it. Despair or joy.
You will rise I just did. Like JUST did.