Darkness

I’m running desperately from dark room to dark room
As the distractions of todays’ light fades all too soon
 
As the night creeps inexorably in 
I crawl deeper into my own skin 
 
Lay down my head to slowly drift away 
Yet anxiousness promises he is here to stay
 
Beg for the relief of the nights gentle dream 
An unconsciousness promising to set me free

But nightmares clasp their evil hands around my mind at night
Pulling me deeper in to their world full of fright
 
Chasing me through the fogged streets of my mind 
I can hear the footsteps following closely behind
 
When night becomes unhinged from the sky
And through the sultry clouds the sun rises high
 
I wake once more, to bruise again from the inside out
Breathing my thoughts in so that I don’t shout
 
This darkness has me wrapped around its little finger
And even as the dawn breaks, this feeling will linger
 
I’ll walk calmly through the fog of the new day
Suck in this panic, promise not to run away
 
I’ll stand squarely in the shadow of my own heart
And remind myself, I am not afraid of this dark
 
Tilt chin to the sun
Reflect on what I have become 
 
Under all this pressure, under all this weight
Remind myself this is how diamonds take shape
 
The glittering, hopeful promise of tomorrow
Succeeds in drowning out today’s grey sorrow
 
But maybe it’s just that I’m becoming undone,
And slowly the moon is becoming my sun

I think the night is my new day 
Perhaps this darkness is here to stay.