October

There is no sense in this, my body lying motionless amongst this mist 
You. Incinerate me, bring me bliss. Take me from this nothingness
 
 Poison, I need poison. Bring it to me now
 Help me escape this prison, show me how
 
 ‘Place it to your lips, let one glass after the next slip down your throat 
 loosen thoughts from your mind. Clip their wings, let them float’ 
 
It’s the hour of the day where I feel too exhausted to breathe
Suffocating, yet it isn’t oxygen I need
 
Its words, more words, the happy, mad, absurd.
even my silence begs to be heard

hours confessing my secrets to the night
face white, chest tight, telling you is wrong and right

You let me spill my words messily onto your page, 
Warning, my dear, those filled blank lines will set a dark stage
 
When finished, my heart thumped for a minute, then vanished completely
To return post-hence with a blunt needle stuck in deeply

The air around me coagulated, thickened, condensed 
I can feel it in the room, both of us tensed
 
 Neurasthenia upsurge, brain begins to burn
 Staring from beneath my eyelids, I wait for your turn
 
 You looked through the clouded windows of my soul
 held me close, a tense kiss you stole 
 
 I listened nervously to what you softly had to say
 as everything melted, pooled, slowly floated away 
 
 Your coolness drifted over the burning parts of me 
 As, from my cell, you set me free
 
 I’ll remember this feeling, like the sea remembers the shore
 As I wait for your words to crash down on me, once.. then once more.