BREAKING YOUR BROKEN HEART.
People will forget; they will move on with their lives while you’re still sitting in your misery.
You are the only one that will remember that feeling of rejection and desperate loneliness and live with that hollow feeling in your heart.
Everyone else will still be the same person but you will forever be changed.
They will pity you and give you advice and tell you that you will get through it and they will mean well but they are not walking in your shoes, they are not stepping on thorns and fighting their way through the dark.
You are alone in this journey, that’s the sad and hard truth. The way you deal with this and the decisions you make while you’re going through this is completely up to you and the consequences of those decisions will sit squarely on your shoulders.
You will struggle, you will want to give up and cry and lose your mind. You will constantly ask yourself why this is happening, what you could have done differently and why you?
It is going to be terribly hard, that I can promise you. It’s still hard for me. You are going to feel your soul fall apart and you’ll smile while it happens. You are going to gasp for air when you think about the tremendous pain that you are feeling and you are going to have to hold on to yourself in order not to fall apart.
Some days will be better than others; misery and heartache will give you a break but then that moment will come when it hits you like a ton of bricks and you will tremble and you will collapse…
You will stay on that floor and will yourself to get back up, you will swallow an ocean of tears and choke on despair.
You are going to feel as if you are dying a thousand deaths and you are going to thrive on it because it will be the one thing that reminds you that you are still alive.
You will stare in the mirror and not recognize the person staring back at you…
You are going to be so so sad, so broken and it’s going to feel as if nothing will ever work. You are going to doubt the healing process and you will tire yourself out….
….trust me, I know.
Does it get any easier?
I don’t know.
I’m yet to find out…