Hi, I’m Lowen, 34 years old and I have no clue what the f*** I’m gonna write about.
But I love to write and that’s maybe all I need to know.
I have some ideas: Kanye is writing a book now, so maybe i’ll submerge my book with his in a transformational way where I use telekinesis to transfer his thoughts into mine. Maybe I’ll use vampirism, that’s a thing. Or I’ll “simply” write my auto-biography - could be a great read years later for myself or perhaps my kids someday. I can write about nomadism, minimalism or psychedelic trips with some creative inspiration from the great Murakami. I have an idea where I’ll write a book, where the hero finds out all the answers of the universe but the end of the book is ‘hacked’ and you’ll only see some encrypted characters in the end. That would be such a downer!
But in the end it’s all about challenging my own fears. I don’t want to sound like your average tumblr quoter, but there’s a lot of truth there.
When my girlfriend challenged me, I could feel the strong presence of the fears and she realised this. She then asked me: “what’s going on in your mind?”
And I lamely said:
It’s near impossible to make money as a writer. I’m afraid of failing. I can only write so many pages and after revising I only have a few left. You want me to write a f***ing book and start tomorrow?? I don’t know what to write about, I have no ideas. I’m gonna waste so much time I could spend on other stuff BLABLALBALBLABLA
I realised that I wouldn’t be able to get out of this challenge, unless I accept to be a scared little wombat. On top of this, she changed it into a bet. I’m betting a $1000 through gofuckingdoit.com. No way out now. Originally we said $10000, but lucky for me, $1000 is the max on the website.
I want to write in the open so I’m gonna post each day in a raw format. No editing, full of spelling mistakes, the notes I make, the ideas I have, I’ll put them all in the open and be super transparent.
Since I have unreliable internet - I’ll work offline and upload it at the end of each day.
All logs:
Day 1: writing anxiety + Kanye+ slow insights
Day 2: age of information-overload + notes + research
Day 3: A story and is starting to form
Day 4: Rewrote the club story and extended it + futuristic North-Korea ideas
Day 5: drugged up anxiety? more ideas about future North-Korea
Day 6: many drafts for future chapters: Kanye conspiracy, northkoreaNet (nkn), Korean Shamanism, etc
Day 7: a summary of North-Korea. The death of Kim and rise of a new generation without identity
Day 8: back2work
Day 9: project Sungmo (`holy mother`)
Day 10: daily life in future North-Korea
Day 11: Another friday, another illegal party. VR visualists.
Day 12: en route the illegal rave
Day 13: took a break
Day 14+15 The narrator blows his mind into new dimensions using a futuristic designer drug.
day 16 Bits of north-Korean history in a tiny can
day 17+18 Highs are never without lows, good & bad trips on MDVP-5-PCE
day 19 to 23 Home. Glitched brain. Korean shamanism.
day 24 to 30: Rearranging the story, deleting a lot of crap, editing, fix spelling mistakes, find better synonyms, refresh my English grammer, etc, etc, etc.
If you love what you’ve just read you could warm my heart 💚 by clapping for me or support me with coffee ☕️
