I’m writing my first book or else I pay my girlfriend a $1000

3 min readMay 3, 2018


Here’s the proof.

Hi, I’m Lowen, 34 years old and I have no clue what the f*** I’m gonna write about.

But I love to write and that’s maybe all I need to know.

I have some ideas: Kanye is writing a book now, so maybe i’ll submerge my book with his in a transformational way where I use telekinesis to transfer his thoughts into mine. Maybe I’ll use vampirism, that’s a thing. Or I’ll “simply” write my auto-biography - could be a great read years later for myself or perhaps my kids someday. I can write about nomadism, minimalism or psychedelic trips with some creative inspiration from the great Murakami. I have an idea where I’ll write a book, where the hero finds out all the answers of the universe but the end of the book is ‘hacked’ and you’ll only see some encrypted characters in the end. That would be such a downer!

But in the end it’s all about challenging my own fears. I don’t want to sound like your average tumblr quoter, but there’s a lot of truth there.

When my girlfriend challenged me, I could feel the strong presence of the fears and she realised this. She then asked me: “what’s going on in your mind?”

And I lamely said:

It’s near impossible to make money as a writer. I’m afraid of failing. I can only write so many pages and after revising I only have a few left. You want me to write a f***ing book and start tomorrow?? I don’t know what to write about, I have no ideas. I’m gonna waste so much time I could spend on other stuff BLABLALBALBLABLA

I realised that I wouldn’t be able to get out of this challenge, unless I accept to be a scared little wombat. On top of this, she changed it into a bet. I’m betting a $1000 through gofuckingdoit.com. No way out now. Originally we said $10000, but lucky for me, $1000 is the max on the website.

I want to write in the open so I’m gonna post each day in a raw format. No editing, full of spelling mistakes, the notes I make, the ideas I have, I’ll put them all in the open and be super transparent.

Since I have unreliable internet - I’ll work offline and upload it at the end of each day.

If you love what you’ve just read you could warm my heart 💚 by clapping for me or support me with coffee ☕️