How to overcome bitterness

Be grateful

i was having a lament. Life was truly unfair and i was mad. I was angry at God. I was questioning my purpose for existing and blaming Him for my circumstances and complaining that my lot was really really unfair.

then..

I came across a video of a woman with no arms. She was using her feet to brush her hair.

wow.

I felt dumb and ashamed.

While my circumstances were no picnic, i have no idea the difficulty this woman lived with. She probably asked the same thing. Why me God? Why did you take my arms and not hers?

Why is her baby healthy and not mine, why God did you spare her job and not mine. Rarely do we lament, why did you allow me to survive the crash and not that family who died?

This women brushing her hair with her feet probably had complaints w God, but perhaps she lost her arms so she could survive the cancer that might kill her. As i write in tears I dont know her story. But I do know this, like Paul, God didn’t change my circumstances that night. Life is still difficult. He may never remove the unfair circumstance. But He did change my heart and attitude of life that night.

Even at our worst, there is someone who has it more difficult than I who made lemonade out of their poor situation. And while God can still be good even if He never changes our bad stuff. We cease to be good when let the sorrows of this life make us bitter.

So while I’m typing with neuropathy in my fingertips from the chemo I just came through, a small price to pay.

I am grateful

and I honor the courageous woman with the feet that brushed her hair.