Tired Tailspin

There’s 22 years of my past I’d like to erase

Every day I try as it grips me, stares me in the face

I did it first at 15

Every day it’s real, I wish it were a dream

Chip is right, the monster is out of the cage

As much as I try to turn the page

Temptation wins

And I’m back in the old tailspin

I do it once in a while, that’s normal isn’t it?

That’s what I say, after every ever lasting binge trip

A few times a week, that’s not so bad

The fact that I think this way, that’s what so sad

It’s time for me to stop bullshitting myself

I can’t beat this beast alone

I need some help

So lord, as I pray to you at the edge of my bed

Help me get these terrible thoughts out of my head

I know it’s not you that can cure me

But here’s a ticket, please come with me