Life Was Aghast

Franz Aryan
Nov 1 · 2 min read

//Life Was Aghast — 04022019

Standing up on my own two feet

Crawling out from this space underneath

One that didn’t really exist

Even for me this was all new territory

My screaming eyes were dwarfed out by a degenerate’s attempt to cry

But I never did

So I crawled back inside to see

On what I’d missed

Of what could actually and entirely set me free

I had to always keep on exercising

For the fight to be less agonising

Whilst swimming and running

With my own dark side

Like I’ve been twinning

Chasing but never winning

Giving but never receiving

You know what they say about deceit

It’s a bitch in the eyes of the surprised

When it hits you its like you lived your life

But most of it merely passed you by

You can nearly cry

When you can no longer betray

That what you have also portrayed

The only thing you’re going to think to say

Is why me? What did I even do to deserve this?

Your whole life will begin to feel haunted

You’ll slip right back into the hole that you thwarted

Only to eventually realise

How your problems were all self-crafted

That they were all in your head

And the moment you acknowledged them

They left you for dead

But you have to know

That in order to climb back out

You have to give more than what you’d given before

‘This time is going to be different than the last’

A promise you’re going to have to make and obey

And forever keep moulded in your past

Today, every time you look at the stars

You will see yourself — smiling back

Knowing well — how once your life was aghast

Franz Aryan

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