You’re just a dirt. No one will see you as a diamond. Why? Because you’re still not ready for that stage. They keep laughing at you. Judging for immature acts. Think for your safety, go away. You turned back not to be safe, but to find maturity. But while you’re finding maturity, you’re loosing the dignity. The intellegence is grief. And you learned that maturity is not experiences. It’s a natural element of the attitude to enhance. And you need to find how to handle it properly and effectively.