In the time I took to write this piece, you could have done some research into the effects of testosterone on women who take it. Both transgender and older women who take it for health reasons. You’d get a lot more insight into the male experience of arousal that way than by exploring your own insecurities. Women on testosterone will tell you that it somehow depersonalizes their experience of sexual arousal and sexual experience. By “depersonalize” I mean it literally takes “the person” out of it. Both one’s own person and the person of whomever one is interacting with. Perhaps more men should try taking estrogen to see it from the other side. Some older men with prostate issues do have this experience and find themselves feeling a lot more “personalized”. Check it out.