Change

I’m going to be blunt…. I am not a fan of change. I enjoy routine. Having things in the same place every day and knowing what is going to happen on a daily basis is pleasing to me. However, life just doesn’t work that way. Curveballs are thrown everywhere and the aftermath results in a chaos inside of me that I struggle to control. One minute I’m on the path of normality and on my way to bigger and better things, the next I’m thrown in a whole new direction. Sometimes new directions are good. Meeting a total stranger and becoming friends, getting lucky and finding something unexpectedly wonderful or even falling in love… but sometimes these paths take a wrong turn and you end up at a dead end. I try to avoid the dead ends as often as I can and yet I still find myself stuck without a way out sometimes. I tell myself that you can’t avoid the dead ends and the curveballs and that you just have to learn to accept them for what they are.

Honestly the biggest change of my life would be meeting this one. I didn’t think of him as anything more than a body in the room a few years ago. Now I’m lucky enough to call him my best friend. We’ve been through it all and now that the storm has died down, I can finally see that he is the one for me. He is kind and smart and funny and we are like peanut butter and jelly. We just get each other. Before him I never really knew anyone who could “get me” but now I have him and I am incredibly lucky. Speaking of change… that is the first photo we ever took together. We both look very confused and frankly he didn’t even know it was happening because I snuck up on him. Now we know. Now we realize how great we are for each other and we are so lucky to find that. We also were prepared for the next photo (also we are not soaking wet and look presentable).

I know that I won’t be able to avoid change. It is literally impossible to avoid. Even if someone sat in a room and did nothing for the rest of their life, they wouldn’t be able to get away from it. Everyones changing. Personalities, appearance, age, lifestyle…. it’s all being thrown into a melting pot and its out job to pick out for ourselves what to make of it all. I’m hoping that our generation learns to make the right choices and to change how they see the world. Change the negative behaviors of our elders and turn them into positivity and love. Someday we will love in a world of peace. It may take a while but people will begin to realize that the change from anger to peace will be better for everyone.