Go tell it on the mountain

The metro was super crowded that day, it was just another Sunday in Delhi. People trying to reach places. Doing there bit, nothing was different for me. I knew what was coming, 2 days, a small trip, going to this new city doing my ‘ish’ and coming back, no looking around only focusing on the purpose. I wasn't expecting anything. I call it the classic 0 expectation policy.

We boarded the bus and in about 4.5 hours we reached Chandigarh, What was it? Was it how the city looked? was it the kind of people I met? or maybe just the embrace of Sivalik Hills. I don’t know something changed inside of me.

I was on the road to Shimla, while looking at the mighty Sivalik you realize that the world is so much bigger than you and of course like any other neurotic 21 year old you start questioning the idea of existence. Like what am I doing here? What is the purpose of my life? I should just quit everything and take the hills. (Don’t worry, I know we all do).

Sometimes you don’t want anything to hold you, you don’t want reason to bind you to others to everything that is somehow related to you but in a parallel universe it is not. And that is when you just need to be on that cliff doing things you never imagined you would do, letting go of gravity completely. It is like you jumping off from the top of the hill not knowing that there is a safety rope attached to you.

Now the modern day psycho-analysts will call us self-centered, narcissistic douche bags. But then sometimes even people closest to you aren't just enough and it is not because you are running away from what you are supposed to be but because you need to escape with yourself. The whole concept of learning to love your own self before finding love in others picks you up here.

You can just go tell it on the mountain that for once there is no plastic around you and it is just you. In that moment, at that place: everything will make sense. One word to describe that feeling? Peace.

I am still climbing that mountain, I hope to see you once I reach up. Meanwhile, I wish you have jolly good days.