I Am Still Here
I am still here.
I knew you were struggling,
and why wouldn’t you be?
You had lost the only love you had truly ever known.
and since then,
you had been doing it all alone.
You got up as though nothing happened,
to make sure that the other love
you had, got the attention that was needed.
Sleepless nights of worry’s and hows?
The sadness simply eating away at your heart, body and mind.
All you could remember, was that you together, had taken these vows.
Until death do us part was not supposed to be this quickly.
Feeling wrapped up like a ball of string.
So tight, unable to unwind.
Wanting to be together one more time.
Knowing this would never happen.
The tears like waterfalls, continued to flow.
The day in and day out of feeling so low.
Time came and went slipping away.
Slowly by slowly days passed, years passed,
eyes were no longer on you.
You were doing so well, so it seemed.
You had moved on.
But the memories still remained.
So they should.
No one can take them away.
You decided to leave in hopes you would meet again.
This time there would be no parting.
You knew the where, the when and the how, it just seemed the right thing.
Until the whispering voice said, NO WAY!
This is just not your time, you have too much to do.
For now that is all I can say.
The next day felt somewhat different.
You didnt feel the same.
Something had come over you
that you could not explain.
Now as you walked you felt lighter inside.
Yesterday was supposed to be the last one
that you had planned.
For today was the first day
of the rest of your life.
The weight had fallen.
The tightness was gone.
Your heart felt alive.
The energy was back.
Somehow your whole body
no longer felt under attack.
No one has to know what you planned.
Something came over you at some point.
You were worth saving, this you are sure of.
The difference is here, you know this my dear.
The life in this lifetime, sits no longer in fear.
Thank you whispering voice, for showing up day and night.
I know it was you who took all of the fights.
Since that day, way back far away, things have shown me, I do have way too much to do and many to help.
I helped me and now I will help others to see, just how far they can go and how they can be.
You saved my life that day, I want to say thank you for showing me your light every day and every night.
You have proved to me that my decision was right and I have never looked back.
I no longer fight.
I am Free.
I am Me.
I am finally happy.
I am alive and excited to be.
