Self-loathing

He hears it,

The way he’s looking at me,

He knows.

He hears my voice cracking.

He knows I am having one of those days,

One of those weeks

Where I hate myself,

Where I feel like I’m not good enough.

Today it is not about my weight.

Today it is because I got another email.

“We have reviewed your application and we chose another candidate for the position.”

Just like all the others.

I feel like I should be doing more.

“You do so much every day. I love you. ” he says.

He doesn’t understand that his love is great,

But, today I hate myself.

-photo by Kate Williams

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