He hears it,
The way he’s looking at me,
He hears my voice cracking.
He knows I am having one of those days,
One of those weeks
Where I hate myself,
Where I feel like I’m not good enough.
Today it is not about my weight.
Today it is because I got another email.
“We have reviewed your application and we chose another candidate for the position.”
Just like all the others.
I feel like I should be doing more.
“You do so much every day. I love you. ” he says.
He doesn’t understand that his love is great,
But, today I hate myself.
-photo by Kate Williams