I know how it feels. The eternal struggle. I’ve been always surrounded by fit and thin people always the odd man out. Tragedy struck me and I began to win the battle. I still fight it day to day and it’s far from over but when I look at myself in pictures from 10 years ago I can’t even recognize myself anymore and react the same way to myself now that other people did to me at that time.
I’ve even been told that I still walk like a fat man even though I’m not. I lumber. I’m still so used to walking as if I’m heavy. I guess you can only work on one habit or issue at a time.
Keep it up. You’ll adjust to the new you as you create her, just give it some time.