It takes a lot of courage to write this post, and very well done. Your emotional intelligence is strong as is your voice — both key components to a successful recovery.
I grew up in Youngstown/Boardman. It is very meaningful to me that you are reaching out from there, as I went to OU and determined that I would create a psychology of love that now, many years later, I have realised in my 27-year practice as a Life Coach.
There are strong dreams in Youngstown, dreams of life and success that will not die. I feel that you are part of the soul of the strength that will always live there, and bravo to you for being so open.