I’ll be honest, I did not read this through to the end.
But darling, you seem more preoccupied with the people in church than God himself.
Humans are flawed and they will always be. Where humans are, you will find scorn, pride, politics. Where humans are you will find evil. It doesn’t mean that God is not there.
Pastors and Priests are flawed as well. You need to realize that the fact that God will save you through someone does NOT mean that the person will be saved. The fact that he will use an individual to call people to himself does not mean that individual is considered worthy of His Kingdom.
He is God. He will use whoever he pleases. But to attain his kingdom, one will need to practice what they preach.
He doesn’t need our consent, approval or obedience to be who he is. Don’t get it mixed up, my darling. He is God all by himself.