Para-poems in the night

A waste of space and a waste of memory, this was once a story written on paper that was once a tree named Destiny or Bob. Thoughts that have littered my brain for ages, like flies I swat with my bare hands. Soon Destiny (or Bob) will enter the furnace, deep down the bottoms of my brain, so that once and for all, I can let go of the thoughts that have poisoned my conversations and destroyed a year that was meant for something more than fights, a year that meant more than just someone who belonged nowhere else but in a pit of regret.

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I hate how I can still remember the day before you broke my heart, when we sat and ate ice cream, my hair in ridiculous braided pigtails, I looked into your eyes, trying to memorize the golden flecks that reflected on the surface, like the sun on water, broken but bright. Thinking that I would still get the chance on the morrow, I postponed that duty for another day , but then right on the next day, you decided that your eyes wanted to look at someone else of a higher caliber, without the flaws that I bring, and the pain that I represent — loss. You wanted simple, I wanted more. And you left me there, smiling to myself, albeit stupidly, secretly glad that I could not completely remember how your eyes looked under the sun, lest I’d never find it in me to forget how you felt.

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Your roar is loud and it echoes in her unknowing mind, as your heart beats for her that oceans cannot tear you apart. But your roars will, how those teeth will rip through the very fabric of your peace, the noise too loud for her to hear her mind. She cannot put you on a leash — for god’s sake, you are a lion. And kisses, tongues, love, and other things will not tame you, nor was that the goal but a means to an end. What to do — she will do anything; to have you hear her voice of reason, an extreme effort, a tiresome exertion of dominance, a magician telling the lion to jump through the hoop. You can see her when she’s on top of you, her calm, her breathing, her eyes closed, her patience will keep you together.

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