My Eyes Still Cry the Same
I can change my hair and clothes, and I can get a new piercing. Can eat new foods go to new places and talk to new people. But my eyes will always cry the same.
After two years, everything is over, done, and gone. Yet my eyes still cry the same. They’ve cried the same since I was a baby. They cried the day I lost my dog almost two months ago now. They cried the same day I broke up with my ex.
No matter how I change, how my world changes that will never change. Is there a blessing in that?
Because I look into my eyes as I cry and I remember how you pretended to care about my sadness. I remember the times that I would cry alone. I remember the times when I didn’t cry at all but now all I do is cry. I remember before when I used to cry my dog was there for me at least. I REMEMBER ALL OF IT. And I feel, all of it.
Therefore that doesn't feel like much of a blessing. But I’m glad I have emotions, just wish I didn’t have this many all at once.
At least for right now, I think it is all a curse. Because every time I cry the tears act as the last remnants of the memories we had. Now streaming down my face never to be remembered in the same way it once was. But I will always cry the same, that’ll always be with me, whether it’s a blessing or a curse.
