I hope that as you write you begin to find the healing and answers that you are seeking. As I read this one, I remember those days of uncertain feelings and longing for ‘normal.’ I’ve learned that normal is new all the time. Normal is sometimes rough, but I’ve also learned that God, family and friends get one through the rough. You have seen this also. To Garth: All cancer patients who get the all clear are cancer survivors. He is now able to really understand what others go through and can help. Thank you for sharing and hang on!