I Was Born to Endless Nights

Conformists go with the flow but revolutionists create their own flow.

Inferences of being a part of the world: unleashing self to the outside world, stepping out to a more extensive scape that the society has created, means we ought to eradicate fears of significant changes? Most of the time, yes, we ought to. Changes come in the most enigmatic circumstances at times (even the slightest bit; starting a destructive lifestyle and falling in love during teenage years still can be called significant changes, you feel it) and in the end we are told to prepare anticipations for those said changes — despite of all that, it’s bluntly paradoxical that most youths are taught to be reactionaries; not that I’m saying that being a reactionary is less profound than being a revolutionary, but the thing is, it’s a prevalent thing that the society implicitly propagates some sort of doctrine to youths to be “all the same” by not giving them the entitlement to think critically nor to have freedom of expression, to the point that they grow scared of being revolutionary/different/out-of-the-box because they’ve been told not to deviate from the norms and conformities or else they would encounter societal punishments in a form of judgments and ostracism. For the record, whenever someone manifests a new way of thinking, or a new idea, or anything revolutionary — they also have to face the fears of ending up as a discrepant misfit because they are “different”. It has always been a chronicle that never ends, people kept on questioning and kvetching about it but in the end no one found the inherent answer about why does it never end.

I’ve come across and been a part of several revolutionary youth collectives that focus on sociopolitical issues (it’s an improvement to the world, really) and they mainly question the same thing too — how some reactionaries sometimes can grow atrocious by accepting damages of humanity as it is and refusing to make changes. As in, those people think that things like gender inequalities and stereotypes, political/religious extremism and bigotry, rape culture, racial/religious/ethnic discrimination, are normal and usual cultures that have been set by norms and therefore changes about them should not be made. In some recent cases revolutionaries stand up to think critically by not just easily engulfing what those doctrines said, and trying to make a change about it by campaigning equality and justice so that inequalities and discrimination would be reduced, and then the end is mainly just the same, they get into polemics with the reactionaries who think they are being deviant by having different views; they fight and argue with no inherent ends because revolutionaries want to be heard and no matter how articulately they try to project their perspectives into the bigoted reactionaries they argue with, those bigots won’t just understand because it is indeed hard to change the perspectives of one if that person had implemented completely different views inside them. Norms and conformities were born through the development of culture, and culture itself is a social construct.

People are scared of changes and being different, mainly because they’re afraid of getting into fights and being judged, it’s human nature. Even accepting ourselves the way we are is hard if we are different and discrepant flames ignite inside us. But then again we’re not a part of the world if we don’t experience changes — that’s just the way we live, we can’t be all “good” and assertive all the time, incoherent turbulences and internal wars inside our heads might be waiting ahead of us anytime soon, and then we’ll experience changes to overcome it. And those changes might not always be a good one, sometimes it does desecrate the wellbeing of one or others but then again it’s a part of living and evolving as human beings.

I think some parts of the populace are against embracing critical thinking and enormous changes in the civilization and society because they’re already comfortable with the current state of society; and thus they accept it as it is. In a lot of ways it can induce holocausts, though, because it means they’re already comfortable with being the victims of the social construct and conformist systems, the authoritarian government that damages the wellbeing of the proles, the patriarchy-fueled society, the infightings between states and racial/ethnic/religious groups, and more to come. And the way they’re already comfortable with the atrocities of the world, if they don’t start a new way of thinking anytime soon, will pass down to their descendants and it would be even harder to contribute changes to this society.

The idea of making revolutionary changes is actually possible eventhough it may seem like forming an utopian society if we only discern it through a superficial point of view because yeah, it does take time. But then again it depends on how do we project and manifest our ideas to the outside world; instead of endlessly questioning why do all these conflicts and polemics between revolutionaries and reactionaries never end, start contributing aspirations with no coercion so that no one would misinterpret your good intentions of making changes. Contemplate more about your deeds and its consequences; seek for new worlds and new paradigms everyday and know that our views may alter from one time to another as dynamic beings and that’s alright; people evolve and change perspectives. Facing changes is indeed uncomfortable but take look at the things we could learn from it — the things we could learn from not having the same, mundane perspectives and ideas everyday.

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