A Letter To The First “Man” Who Broke My Heart.

“You took me by the hand, and made be believe you was the sunshine in my darkest days.

However, little did I know you’d make my “darkest” days look like sunshine.

You took me by the hand and lead me to what I at first thought would be the sun, and it was the sun, for a little while..

You didn’t care about me, you got in my head and made me think I deserved to be treated horribly. You made me blind to the fact that I was being emotionally abused. You made me Blind. Love makes you blind.

We’ve been together, on and off for two years. You always come crawling back once you realize there’s no other person who will put up with the way you treat them. It took me two years of emotional abuse too realize, I don’t need you. When I was once focusing on YOU for my happiness, on YOU to be my rock, and I thought it was YOU who held the key to my heart..

But you took advantages, you took who I was as a person and made me become cold.

You couldn’t handle my mental health, or my bad health in general.. But once you thought you lost me, you always came crawling back. My mistake, was allowing you to come back. Allowing you to hurt me, time and time again. But I can no longer continue with that mistake. No matter how much I love you, I can longer allow myself to be put down like you have done to me.

In your next relationships, you’ll look for me in every person you will be with. You will look for the same shade of brown eyes I have, you will look for the same laugh I have, the same morals I have, the same height, the same voice, the same looks, and even the same attitude.. But you will never find another me. And when you decide you want to be good to me, I will be strong enough to say NO to you. I CAN live without you. No matter how hard it is for me to say so, I can. No matter how much this hurts me.

And if it’s meant to be, later in the future it will be. But until then, I hope you man up, I hope you grow up. I love you. I always will, but I must say goodbye.

So this is goodbye my love. Until we find out our future. I love you. Until the end.”