#MeToo

I knew you were dangerous when…

I knew you were dangerous when you controlled my money and controlled me with money.

I knew you were dangerous when you demanded who and who I couldn’t speak to.

I knew you were dangerous when I kept friends in secret.

I knew you were dangerous when red lights threw you into a violent rage.

I knew you were dangerous when you were unpredictable. Your baby today, a joke tomorrow.

I knew you were dangerous when you backed me into the kitchen corner and towered over me.

I knew you were dangerous when you made fun of people to their face.

I knew you were dangerous when your jokes became classist, racist, and sexist.

I knew you were dangerous when you read my teenage diaries and perverted my words into weapons.

I knew you were dangerous when you told people my secrets.

I knew you were dangerous when you body shamed me.

I knew you were dangerous when you called me a slut.

I knew you were dangerous when your friends actually felt sorry for me.

I knew you were dangerous when you bragged about how you manipulated me into your good graces. How it worked because you were that good and I was that easy.

I knew you were dangerous when you came out of the shadows. How long had you been there? How much had you heard?

I knew you were dangerous when you gave me a curfew.

I knew you were dangerous when you said “or you’ll regret it.”

I knew you were dangerous when I believed you.

I knew you were dangerous when I became isolated from everyone.

I knew you were dangerous when I cried after sex.

I knew you were dangerous when I had to flee.

I knew you were dangerous when you broke into my new house uninvited and unannounced.

I knew you were dangerous when you hacked into my computer and read my messages.

I knew you were dangerous when you screamed at me while I was wrapped around the toilet, sick with food poisoning.

I knew you were dangerous when you stole from me, left the city, and wouldn’t answer the phone.

I knew you were dangerous when I couldn’t be in a crowd without scanning for your face, always on guard.

I knew you were dangerous when you wouldn’t stop calling.

I knew you were dangerous when I felt hunted.

I still know you are dangerous.