Light bulbs in the Camino!

Well the last 2 days have been filled with darkness and light. The Puente la Reina to Estella route of 22 km found me not a happy walker! Just wanting to be alone and wallow in God knows what… it was one of those days of self pity and ache shoulders and asking myself what am I really good at!!! If I am trying to find some direction shouldn’t I know what is it that I am good at that makes a difference in this world, Jeesh. I look at others ( why I am not sure!) and it seems clear to most, why is it not to me? Then I start thinking about relationships, you would be amazed at what pops into your head on a long walk. I go over and over all the relationships in my life, friends, family, work, partner and wonder how that all fits into my life. I think about the phrase that is said often on the Camino “Buen Camino” meaning Good Way which leads me to my Camino and what does that look like for me?? The Camino is DEFINITELY a path of self discovery whether you want to go there or not! You don’t go to the Camino it comes to you whether it is in Spain or where you call home. It is about finding your way, your life that is good for you… it is really as simple as that

Today’s path was a solo one for me, hugging Susan and saying I need to do this alone and I will meet you in Los Arcos 21km away. Now let me tell you there is something to be said about heading out on your own trusting the path that lies ahead… a bit scary and exhilarating all in the same breathe. I choose the more scenic route through the wilderness and mountains, it was truly SPECTACULAR not just the landscape but the feeling of knowing it’s not so bad on my own.

There where moments that took my breathe away and brought tears to my eyes, so these where my life light bulb moments…

• The thing that I am great at is just being me, go figure
• When I am on a path and I get lost there is always a sign that leads me in the right direction

• For every hill that I am afraid to climb because it looks to hard I always make and realize it was not so bad
• On the path there is always someone that is walking ahead willing to share there experience to help guide me and there is always someone behind me willing to support me
• Around every corner there is always this beautiful surprise waiting I just have to go around it without any expectations
• And finally this My Camino just as it is my life and I am walking it one step at a time

Buen Camino