Because, before self-love becomes a liberation, it is first a burden. Well, there’s the anger at who treated you poorly when you didn’t know to ask for better treatment. The anger at yourself for what you’ve allowed. There’s the grief for lost time. There’s the strangling necessity to push people, things, ideas out, out, out because
What it really feels like to love yourself
Jamie Varon

Exactly. The discovering of those inner truths, places you were/are broken and the desire to fix them…but, first the self anger for being so weak! For allowing these unnecessary hurts. But, of course we had no choice…as we had no idea.