Negativity Cleanse, Day 4: This is hard.

Today, I’m thinking back on past months where I made a pseudo promise to stay positive and can recall nothing but joyous, calm times as compared to what I am experiencing this week.

Perhaps it is the commitment to share my progress with the wider world that is allowing every single nuisance, deadline or miscommunication to aggravate me beyond measure (and line the pockets of PBS!), but I am not doing very well so far.

An avalanche of projects with very specific tasks, potential baby sickness, an almost Blue Cross nightmare which turned out to just be a scare and party planning for our little lady’s first birthday have led to likely one of the most stressful weeks I’ve had in awhile.

Through it, I’ve tried to retain the composure I can (losing it completely once) and accepting that stress is inevitable and will result in negative feelings. It is how I respond to the stress and limit the things I can control that are what alter my mood for the best.

For example, I have stayed strong on avoiding my known triggers even at the height of political season. I’ve pushed positive messages and taken the time to interact with friends. I’ve spent nothing on myself (even though a lot has spent on this party!). And, I’ve tried to be there as much as I can for my wife who is having a busy week, as well.

I draw inspiration from her commitment and support to this challenge, as well. For example, she asked that we take the TV out of our bedroom so we could have a more relaxing space and reminds me constantly of the blessings in our lives.

But, I need to do better and tomorrow is going to be great!

Amount donated to PBS so far: $45 
Books : Gratitude by Oliver Sacks (Completed), Blue Mind by Wallace J. Nichols (reading)