My own experience brought out another of the many unfortunate aspects of my condition, of trusting the very least the people who had the most ability and willingness to help me.
That’s another thing others often won’t understand, that the obstinacy to not simply go and “get help” comes as only one part of the whole condition, not just a conscious thought-out decision to deny all evidence that it’s needed.
It’s where your mind is at; your present reality, “not like it used to be”. Being afraid to do something is one of the more assured ways in which that act becomes an impossibility, no matter what advice or counseling you’re being given.
Obstinate refusal in the face of all logic will eventually wear down much of the forbearance from others, that a person might have accumulated through their whole lives of previously responsive behavior. The whole idea doesn’t make sense in general to your people, and especially so in terms of how well they know you.
But then, their entire wakeful environment isn’t floating on a constant ocean of worrisome whirlpools and fearful expectations, either.