Making Sense With My Relationship With Money
For years after I lost a lot of money in a very bad entrepreneurial moment and as I was coming out of my self-loathing period I learned that the cause of my money being taken away from me was at least in part driven by my undisciplined pursuit of “more” attitude at that time. I own what result I got, even as painful as it was.
Then I worried for many years that having the desire for money again, like real money, was going to just bring on the same results. Lack of true happiness, wrong focus, and then poof it’s all gone again, as I am unworthy.
Until I met Seneca. Well, I didn’t really meet him since he has been dead for thousands of years, but I met his writing. Seneca was a very rich and powerful man, yet he was indifferent to his wealth and the spoils from it. For Seneca he thought that it is not about shunning or avoiding things…like money and wealth, but rather not giving any possible outcome of my life any more power or preference, including money.
The stoics believe that I should enjoy my material things while they are there, but accept that they might someday disappear. This is a considerably better attitude then desperately craving more stuff or fearfully dreading every minute of losing even one penny. Indifference is solid middle ground.
To be sure, I am absorbing this message not in it’s most literal sense. I am not planning to be indifferent to the point that I don’t attempt to make proper business or financial decisions. I am simply allowing the idea that the amassing of wealth and money I am indifferent to. If I don’t have a burning desire to have special stuff that comes form money then I think I will have a better and more healthy overall relationship with money.
Not easy, I get it, but imagine how more relaxed I might be?