New Year — Old me?

It is a new year, and basically, I am still the same. I wish I could change and become someone else overnight. I have struggled the whole December because it was hard to get my heart broken so many times. I wish I would stop overthinking — and make my brain work less and be more productive in a better way.

So, it is a new year, but old me. I know I should like the parts of myself that are ugly. I should love myself wholly. It is not easy because you tend to like the shiny parts. But this year I want everything to be different. And granted I say that every year. But I want to not become the new person, but try to accept and cherish the person I am currently am.

Let perform a little inventory. What do we have at hand?

I am smart, and well read. And well-travelled. I am kind and beautiful. I am a good professional and a good writer.

But also, I tend to get depressed, I lose interest very fast in people and things. I am not good with money, and I tend to sick validation from other people. I have some extra weight that I need to lose. And I tend to sabotage myself. And I tend to reject myself — DUH.

Wow. This doesn’t look like that stuff I am accepting; it looks like the stuff I am pointing out to change.

I need to accept myself, the way I am. Boy, it will be so hard.