…es this sound like the behavior of a designer that has stopped caring about their craft? Maybe, but I prefer being an average designer that creates something rather than an amazing designer that delivers nothing. When you learn to manage the fear of failing, and you give yourself more room to make mistakes, you start having fun creating. The quality of your work will organically get better over time anyway.
Well, if it’s so difficult to fake who we are, then perhaps the smart thing to do is stop faking. Consider skipping the Hummer H1 for a Toyota Corolla and spend the time you save on learning how to converse better, tell funny jokes, care for the weak, or stay strong in the face of emotional turmoil.