Alone in the wild without food, I never felt more alive.

Beach panorama with tent in foreground
Beach panorama with tent in foreground
The beach where I married a mermaid.

When I reached the beach, I had been fasting for one day and two nights already. I would spend the next three days here. Alone. Without food. Without a smartphone or books. Just me, my tent, sleeping bag, a canister of water. And, crucially: my soul journal.

A vision fast is foremost an encounter with the soul — a quest to find the most profound truth about yourself: the reason you’re alive.

A vision quest is a ritual enactment of the hero’s journey: you leave the village, roam the wild, then return with supernatural gifts. It’s a rite of passage…


World collapse invites spiritual transformation (part two).

Photo by Joshua Brown on Unsplash

There’s a famous scene in the movie The Matrix, where the hero is offered a choice. Take the blue pill and go back to sleep. Or take the red pill, and reality will never be the same.

You take the blue pill…the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill…you stay in Wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes. — The Matrix

I felt like I swallowed the red pill when I came across Dark Mountain and read the Uncivilization Manifesto. A great sense…


World collapse invites spiritual transformation (part one).

A wrecked locomotive
A wrecked locomotive
Source: public domain.

A few years ago, my life went off the rails completely. My love of decades walked out and broke off all contact. Other disasters appeared as sideshows. My business failed, and I lost all my money. Homeownership: gone. My mother faded into dementia. The scaffolding of who I thought I was and what I lived for, collapsed into rubble.

Spare me your pity. I’m doing fine. This story is not about me — it’s about facing the human condition. We all suffer overwhelming losses.

The experience transformed me. Life will never be as it was before. It changed me. …


… is a dud

Photo by stein egil liland

Let me be honest with you: I’m a natural pessimist. When people question having children because of the coming ecological apocalypse, I’m with them all the way. The apparently unstoppable nature of climate change is the most urgent concern we’re facing as humanity. Quoting James Lovelock:

We are on the edge of the greatest die-off humanity has ever seen. We will be lucky if 20% of us survive what is coming. We should be scared stiff.

The warming trend is already very worrying. Even more scary, is the possibility of runaway climate change. As humans we naturally think in terms…

Guido Stevens

MBA. Polymath. Polyglot. Maker. Tech entrepreneur. Community builder. Rationalist mystic. Buddhist. Two daughters. Infinitely curious. → darkedge.world

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