"Life is unfair" approved once more!
Dear G,
There is nothing exceptional in failing yourself to the deepest will and wait a light to come. Because every humanbeing faces and gets experience differently out of it.
Clinging this philosophy I would like to apologize in front of you!
I failed. Yes, I am a total failure! Success has nothing to do with me. It petrifies of me, because I rape it rather than hug. "Mind your own business, dude! I’ll call cops if you approach me once again!" it roars to my ears.
It assumes me as a devil. It never liked me. Few of the sucesses I earned was total irresponsiblity of SA (Success Adminstration). Now it seems secretary has been changed and everything works well.
Iýundan bäri jan-ten bilen ýapyşan maksadymyň bary-ýogy 1 bal bilen tigirlenip, uçurt gaýadan yzyma gaýdaryn öýtmekden juda köp gaça duranym üçindir belki, ýykylanym. Arasynda çyndanam pikirlenmelidir. Nirde ýalňyşlyk goýberdim diýip pikir ede-ede ýygyrt haltadaky ezilen bugdaýa dönmelidir. Ýene ýekeje bal alan bolsam tanyş egindeşimiň begenişi ýaly begenip bilerdim. Dabanlarymyň bir-biregi zynjyrlap, gamçylap öňe itergili halynda dälde, uçup yöräp bilerdim.
I created "a failure" diary where I write whatever made me so. It has reached plenty already. And I am even not mid of the ordinary life expectation range.
Doesn't a hard work associate with success well in terms of joining process?! Or luck has to involve in it. Oh if so, I am okay. Because I don't know what luck is.
I apologize for not fulfilling your expectations! That you invested in wrong person! That I made you regret! Thises and thats...
However, dear G.
I recovered. It is my brother's birthday today. After giving him sweet present, seeing my youngest brother fighting for another piece of chocolate, eating manty made by sweet mom's hand and reassuring words: "Haýyrlysydyr oglum!" It is okay. I will keep it up. For next year pursuasion of masters. Let's see if we negotiate with new Secretary of SA ;)
3rd of Nov. 2019
#absurdportraitofwords
Note: Kämahal kirli optimizden, sap-arassa pessimitstlik ýagşydyr, jana ýakyndyr.

